So Busy

I have always hated when people say they are too busy to blog or really when that is an excuse at all. I take it back. I take it all back. I am there. It isn't even like I don't have hours of free time when I could do it, cause I totally do. I am just exhausted. Mentally and physically and emotionally and any other ally you can think of.

Here is what is going down, in a briefish recap:

1. Olivia is six months old now. Not yet crawling but rolling like a tumble weed. She is teething, not sleeping much and generally a big ball of 6 month old fun. See picture for proof.

2. I just spent a month with my in laws here. I didn't kill anyone but it totally fucked me up and I am having to fiddle with my meds again. The bright side, I have a killer anti-anxiety med added. The dark side it knocks me for a loop and makes me a smidgey goofey, this is when I should be blogging. Having them here for a month put a tremendous strain on my cleaning and laundering schedule, my house looks like shit and no matter how much I clean it still looks like shit.

3. Hannah is in karate and that mean I have to take her to Karate twice a week. Which means I have to have a sitter for Drew twice a week. Which means that I am very glad my brother lives down the road from me.

4. The biggest time consumer is that I volunteered to be a Daisy Scout leader not knowing that it meant me and my co-leader would essentially be starting a brand new troop as this Girl Scout troop never did the Daisy level before. Then because I don't hate myself enough and neither does said co-leader we took on two HUGE fundraising projects. Which reminds me....anyone want to donate to me?

That is in a nut shell where I have been. I am trying to be better but I am so worn out that I usually sit here staring at the blank page not knowing what to say. That sucks.

Hannah got her first belt

Can someone please tell me who this kid is and where my baby went?




In Karate. Yay Hannah

Pumpkin Farm

We went to the Pumpkin Farm yesterday. It was a long tiring day but fun to. We lost Drew for a bit but he was found safe and sound. It was an awesome day!! Enjoy the pictures of my beautiful babies

New Blog

I am starting a new blog to share your kids ridiculous artwork. I would love contributions from all you Mommies out there. http://didntmakefridge.blogspot.com/

Cartoons are teaching our kids to be assholes!!

I am watching an episode of Olivia. This episode starts with Olivia coloring with her new crayons. She barely gets started when her brother wants to color too. She says no because he might break the crayons, he squeals on her (pig joke totally intentional). Her mom tells her to share and he takes all the red crayons. She decides to move on to a puzzle, Ian follows her and she says she wants to do it herself and he squeals again. She is told once again to share so she moves on to reading a book. Ian follows again, squeals and Olivia gets sent to her room.

This is how this would have played out at my house. Mom Hannah wont share her crayons. Well they are her crayons so suck it and go play with your own stuff. Mommy Hannah wont share her puzzle. Dude crawl out of her ass she isn't your personal play thing and stop tattling before I whoop your butt. (This is interchangeable with beat your ass but I was trying to be proper)

It would have never gotten as far as three times tattling. That shit gets old fast and I am not going to listen to it just because my kid is acting like an ass. I am so not into pushing the kids to share. I will tell them to take turns with things like the TV or what not but I am a firm believer in She/He had it first. Its not that I don't want them to share, its just I don't want them to think they can just have whatever they want because they want it. That isn't realistic.

To be honest for the most part they do pretty good on their own and only really get like the above scenario when tired and looking for a fight.

Really Hannah?

Here were have a normal picture of my beautiful child, my first born, the love of my life and one of the most gorgeous kids I have ever seen in person. Yes I am biased, but seriously gorgeous no?
And here we have a picture of the goofiest child I have ever seen in my life, a child that may be channeling Water Boy. She is that kid you see out licking the play ground equipment, A child that really really needs to learn not to try and look cute, just go with God gave her.

Four Scary Letters

ADHD. I feel like just the thought of them should cause thunder to rumble and lightening to flash across the sky.

My baby girl was officially diagnosed as ADHD yesterday. I was really surprised by that evil little H. I thought for sure only the A and D's were her issue. Apparently not. I sat there calmly talking to the Dr about it. Hannah reading a story about Scooby Doo. Inside my head was exploding. NO it screamed SHE IS NORMAL!! Then I started going over in my head how I had caused this or how it could be pinned on me having caused it. Too much TV not enough breast milk, I shouldn't have kept her on formula until she was 15 months I should have returned her crib because other models had been recalled for lead and maybe hers got lead by association. She did chew on it enough.

The Dr was really kind about it all. Telling me the facts and trying to soothe the fear he saw in my eyes. Hannah all the while just say there reading books. He told me he could see that she was bright, that she was sweet and not to worry about the wart on her finger that I had to point out to him. Maybe the wart is the cause of her issues?

Issues plural. It seems that along with her ADHD she is dangling over the edge of being under weight. How I want to laugh a terrifying hyserical laughter over this. I am such a cow right now and my daughter is losing weight while eating nothing but crap. The weight is an issue because should we decide to medicate her one side effect is weight loss. You will be so proud that I managed not to say "Oh can I have that"

Her behavior in school has improved and today was the first day that she even got a warning in class this month. I spoke with her teacher and she is more then ok going the drug free road and putting in the extra effort for Hannah to do well. God help me that through the years all her teachers rock this hard.

Right now I am still just digesting this. It doesn't change who she is, it just helps us to understand why she is the way she is. It is however never easy to admit that this person, this person that you grew in your womb for 42 weeks, this person that I created has an issue that has to be worked on. I want so much for my baby girl and I hate to think of her having to work that much harder to get what she wants.

If anyone can though its her. She is the most stubborn, determined person I know. She is strong and she is smart and she will meet her potential, add to that, that she is absolutely beautiful and I think that ADHD needs to look out for her. She is going to kick its ass and I will help her.